this is my now

Do you like stop and ponder? I think being introspective have a mysterious way of allowing myself to achieve peace and stability. Content and happiness comes naturally if you can identify the beauty of what your life was then, what it is now and what it may be in the future. I find looking back very rewarding. After all, when you are feeling nothing, memories can help you evoke all those emotions that have touched you in the past. And when you are left with nothing, they make you feel as full a person as ever before.

Throughout this past winter, while on the roads in search for snow, i found time to reminisce some of these. Don't you just love the flashbacks on certain episodes of your life? Don't you sometimes want to go back and live it all again? But yet, you know that things have changed and you have progressed. Even if we all hate to admit it, we have all became somewhat urbanly responsible.

As i wake up and look at my face in the mirror every morning, i reckon to myself that this is my now, with all the good things before myself, and how far i have came. However, sometimes i can't help but wonder have i lost some of the zest and fervor that prominently defines my past. Sometimes i wish i can flip through those memoirs and grab some of them back. Even if i can't, i will still have those treasures in me forever, my memories....